this lady was amazing

killerlady @ 2005-10-26T12:56:00

2005-10-26T16:59:17Z

yea im just a bad friend right?
yea okay.
HEH

you got what i needdd

2005-10-19T17:33:06Z

so last night me and lissa and ryan went ove rclays,
mad heads in one room,
watched land of the dead,
then back to lissas for NIP/TUCK HOLY FUCKING HELLLLL
and then to dustins for chonkin,
haha,
mad fun.
this morning ryan gave me money for lunch then took me to work.
:)
<3

killerlady @ 2005-10-19T13:24:00

2005-10-19T17:26:40Z

me and ryna are ahving a baby and naming it Atlas.
me and lissa are tight.
real update after i poop.
or something

killerlady @ 2005-09-28T18:04:00

2005-09-28T22:07:10Z

i miss being that young and in love.
haaaaa.
my new tattoo is kicking your ass!

should i even waste my time and come back?
does anyone out in livejournal land miss me?

killerlady @ 2005-09-21T16:35:00

2005-09-21T20:48:29Z

www.myspace.com/stephfuckingryan

killerlady @ 2005-08-22T17:45:00

2005-08-22T21:45:49Z

if anyone sees this and talks to ryan young tell him im desprate to talk to him....

killerlady @ 2005-07-30T22:42:00

2005-07-31T02:42:45Z

i love ryan mitchell young & melissa noel mehl.that is all.

my hair was so amazing/i stole this from meg

2005-07-12T15:30:34Z

and everyone wanted to be like me.

muwahahaa.psychhhh!

1. How tall are you?
not tall enough

2. Have you ever smoked heroin?
nerp

3. Do you own a gun?
no,but id like one

4. Rehab?
yes

5. Would you fuck someone in a cemetery?
maybe

6. Have you ever killed an animal?
no

7. Are you Irish?
yes

8. What do you think of hot dogs?
baseball park hotdogs,others need not apply

9. What's your favorite Christmas song?
winter wonderland

10. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
green tea/earl grey

11. Do you do pushups?
sometimes,whenim feeling man-like

12. Have you ever done ecstasy?
yes

13. Are you vegan?
nope

14. Do you like painkillers?
they're okay

15. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?
hahahaha

16. Do you own a knife?
kershaw

17. Do you have A.D.D.?
maybe?but no...

18. Do you love the pain a tattoo brings?
i wouldnt know

Top 5 Thoughts At This Exact Moment:
1. i wish my tea wasnt hot
2. tam i going to eat
3. i hate my job
4. i want a tattoo
5. omy throat hurts

Name the Last 5 Things You Have Bought:
1) weed
2) cigarettes
3) tgi fridays
4) pants for work
5) bottled water

Name Five Drinks You Regularly Drink:
1) water
2) green tea
3) earl grey tea
4) natty boh
5) vodka

19. What's In Your CD Player?
black eyed peas,chili peppers greatest hits,mr,bungle,rickys mix

20. What Time Did You Wake Up Today?
9

21. Current Hair?
eh,i need to cut it

22. What are you wearing?
mesh shorts and a beater with a mohawked woman singing on it

23. Current Worry?
too many

24. Current Love?
nothing

25. Current Hate?
my job

26. Favorite Place To Be:
beach

27. Least Favorite Place?
the olive tree

28. Where Would You Like To Go?
the beach

29. Where Do you want to live?
where i live now,just not in this house

30. What do you wear when you go to sleep?
whatever

31. What were you doing 12AM last night?
watching comedy central and smoking weed-MEG WE WERE DOING THE EXACT SAME THING HA

32. What do you think you'll be doing in 10 years?
livin it up

33. Do you burn or tan?
depends

34. Last thing you ate?
rice cakes

35. If you could be a pirate, who would you be?
myself,STEPH THE PIRATE,duh

36. Last time you had sex?
last night,with myself,im asexual

37. What songs do you sing in the shower?
whatever

38. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?
dolls

39. What's in your pockets right now?
nothing

40. What color are your bedroom walls?
dirty pale blue

41. Last thing that made you laugh?
jerry psringer

42. Best bed sheets you had as a child?
ninja turtles

43. Do you like your teeth?
hell yea,they're perfect

44. Worst injury you've ever had?
a rusty nail went through my knee cap,or the bmx accident

45. What are your dreams like?
intense,and for the past few years i have the same reoccuring nightmares

46. How many TV's do you have in your house:
4

47. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
sometimes

48. Who is the loudest friend:
amber

49. Who is the quietest friend:
i dont know quite people

50. What song do you want played at your wedding?
lionel richie

killerlady @ 2005-07-08T16:17:00

2005-07-08T20:21:09Z

i tell them all im not depressed.
that i didnt mean it.
that i didnt really want to die.
im a horrible liar,
and as the days goes by,
everyone is starting to see it.
i dont want to do this anymore.
no no no.
not ever again,
not for one more minute,one more second.
maybe i do need some help,
maybe i just need a new life,
maybe i need some drastic escape,
to start over,
and never know the same people,
do the same things,
feel the same feelings.
i never want to wake up,
not until this all just goes away.

killerlady @ 2005-07-08T16:12:00

2005-07-08T20:14:40Z

i dont know you.
i dont know myself.
i dont know anything anymore....

sometimes when im really depressed,i wear the ring ryan bought me,its beautiful.

for the 4th of july....

2005-07-05T14:07:39Z

i did nothing but lay in bed,
around 10:30 yesterday my throat started hurting,
by 5 it was a full blown cold.
i layed in bed doped up on tylenol cold,
i got it from either jessica or my mom,
bitches.im still sick.
waiting for the cable man to get here,
drinking plently of theraflu,
my ears are starting to hurt.
sorry about last night melissa,
but i was dead♥
hope everyone else had a lovely time!

booo

2005-07-04T07:47:28Z

been working ALOT lately.
i miss my old life.
i worked a double yesterday,
came home and attempted to nap til around 10p.m.,
but ended up waking up about 20 minutes ago.
lame.

killerlady @ 2005-06-27T10:40:00

2005-06-27T14:43:17Z

thats me and my wifes hubby,ahem,the one with the penis.carroll count yparties man.let me tell you.yea i think its a cute picture,or something,shit,i look cute,hahaha,and its the only clear picture in my posession of my septum♥

yesterday i went out with the beautiful stay*c,we went and ate at her work,good ol' TGI fridays,yum,and then she introduced me to COLDSTONE ICECREAM,fucking AMAZING,holy shit,i love hanging out with stay*c,we do what hippos do,eat@! and then normally get drunk.
so we picked up her hub,swung by robbages,got some liquor♥ and then went over jessica & ambers,we started watching Garden State,i chugged my 22's in like 10 minutes,then dipped out....yea...i love my friends,the end

i need you back in my life

2005-06-26T21:28:53Z

im trying to keep it together,
but im falling apart...

im raps mvp

2005-06-26T14:19:45Z

the plane landed early,
i was home around 8:30,
florida was fun,
disney was a blast,
even though it thunderstormed for alot of the time,
and my little brother is the most obnoxious 9 year old ever...
soooo as soon as i get home i shower
and go watch the fight over erica's,
gatti vs. pretty boy floyd,
they had to stop the fight because gattis face swelled shut,
it was awesome.
i drank lots of beer,
and malibu,
and dont really remember most of the night,
i was extremely happy to be home with my loves.
tyrin & jessamo=my saviors.
they keep my sanity!
okay im going to lay out and try and get darker

slide slide slippity slide

2005-06-22T07:06:39Z

funny.
i tend to hurt the ones i love.
the ones i really care about.
the one who really cares.
im such a fuck up.
the end.
plane leaves in two hours.

killerlady @ 2005-06-21T23:07:00

2005-06-22T03:09:32Z

he makes me happy when skies are gray.

shutup.

2005-06-21T13:10:00Z

i love the mother fucking Black Eyed Peas.
i love my sleepovers @ george & ty's.
i love that this time tomorrow ill be in Florida.
i love how matt schatz turned out to be totally radical.
i love food,and im going to eat some,RIGHT NOW!

ps:last night was the first night that i didnt get drunk in forever,
i woke up this morning feeling fanfuckingtastic

grocery store

2005-06-20T23:58:43Z

im going to florida for a week,
i leave 4am wednesday morning...
be jealous.
oh yea,
nothing is sexier than boys rolling blunts.
im enthralled.
♥

KIDDIE PORN PART 2...and jessica looking like a cock<3

2005-06-18T20:42:20Z

you dont you dont,you know you know

2005-06-18T20:34:10Z

holy shit my i love my fucking friends.everyone should be jealous.extremely jealous.i mean,come on now,my life is surrounded with beautiful talented people,its fucking insane,like,every single on of them.its awesome to see how we've all molded each other over the years,theres a little bit of everyone in everyone,we all ahve different quirks or sayings that we've gotten from each other,we hae our own language,i fucking love em,and beer,my friends and beer.oh yea,food weed and sex are cool too.....

mom and dad are white but you're black as ink

2005-06-17T18:29:54Z

HOT YOUNG GIRLS!!! XXX!!!

awe.

my many personalities

i have a profile.
really?

sorry im so obnoxious with my face everywhere but HAHAHA

2005-06-16T17:27:58Z

im scurredddd

radical

i do too many drugs,and flop around,or not?

real thugs stand while they smoke

i LOVE this picture

whats eating steph ryan?haha

blinking is bizzare

jon couldnt keep the camera steady.
fucking nerves!

lets keep on movin

2005-06-12T18:04:32Z

so last night lissa flinn & meg pick me up,
i dont really recall exactly what we did between that time and 9,
but it involved getting good looking?
i being the single one though,
had no real reason to get pretty.
its weird that those 3 girls have boyfriends now,
and i dont,
i guess its because ive always been in relationships,
and now im being put on hold?
anywho,
we go to this party in carroll county,
some fat girl was trying to eat me,
she told me that her bf was hitting on me,
and asked me not to do anything with him or whatever?
and i just didnt care,
but then i found out that shes just a total whackjob,
that her and the dude broke up six months ago,
and that shes just stuck on his nuts.
so around 3a.m. we go hot tubbin,
and this bitch shows up outside the dudes house...
i think it was a weird situation for lissa,
who was with her man,
for me to just be sitting there outside the hot tub,
while dude is out front arguing with his ex gf,
who was flipping out over my presence,
and then lissa and kev were having a good ole time in the hot tub.
none of that made sense.
well,to me it did....
we got home around 5.
holla.

i took your smile as something different

2005-06-11T17:49:34Z

last night i went to bumfuck nowhere,
middle of the woods,
to my friend jon beers house,
haha beeeeeeeers,
minus a v,
ha anywho....
we just sat around and bullshitted for hours,
he made me two cds,
which upped my lame ass cd collection
which mainly consisted of mixed cds,
and then like a tool cd,
all my good stuff is on cassette,
anywho,
yea,
the woods.
the end.